Life has been full of changes lately. Mostly good. Lots of positive things happening in my life. Newly single. New place to live. New neighbors. New relationships. New routines. New opportunities.
The constants in my life have been .... my kids. my career. my running.
An assortment of cards that were mailed to me, left on my desk at the office or presented to me at the celebration of my new beginning over the past six months are so comforting. I keep them visible as a constant reminder that there are people that care about me ... even when I am alone, without the kids.
One of my favorites is the one that talks about how happiness is a journey. Not a destination. It reminds me that as I continue to think positive and am much happier than I once was ...... True happiness will not happen for awhile. Just as my running is a journey from one milestone to another .... true happiness will happen in increments along the way. One positive experience will lead to another. One opportunity will bring many others.
I think that I believed that once I started my new life that that questions would be answered and my "forever" was going to begin. I'm not going to find my new life overnight and it's the experienes, decisions and obstacles that I encounter along the way that are going to help me learn and grow. Again, just like my running. I don't need immediate answers right now, regarding what my future holds. But I do know that the kids and I will be happy.
Life has been busy between being a single parent half of the time, working 10-12 hours at the office, coaching 2-3 sessions in the evenings, juggling friends, family and relationships, training & racing, and doing the day-to-day household responsiblities & errands alone .... but, all of these things are blessings in my life. And, I can't imagine my life without every element of my life. And I'm juggling it all on my own ... or at least trying.
I'm finally realizing that I also need time for ME. I'm running, running, running (for exercise AND just to get from one element to the next) and I just need to slow down and perhaps even SCHEDULE some time for myself. So, I decided to set aside a day next month to use some gift cards that have been sitting in my purse : as I will be going to the spa next month, going shopping for some new clothes and may even enjoy a meal by myself at one of my favorite restaurants. Who knows.
I will keep smilin'! :)